Diana the Huntress

From the very first time I rest my eyes on you, my heart said follow through.

I know now that I'm way down on your line, but the waiting feeling's fine.
So don't treat me like a puppet on a string, 'cause I know how to do my thing.
Don't talk to me as if you think I'm dumb, I wanna know when you're gonna come

See - I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
'Cause summer is here, and I'm still waiting there
Winter is here, and I'm still waiting there

Like I said - it's been years since I'm knocking on your door
And I still can knock some more
Ooh, boy, ooh, boy! Is it crazy?

Look, I wanna know now...
Is it crazy for I to knock some more?

You see - in life I know that there is lots of grief
But your love is my relief
Tears in my eyes burn, while I'm waitin'
While I'm waitin' for my day

Like I said -
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna wait in vain

KAR ACT & RIST IKS

Positive aspects: intuitivity, modesty, inner strength, calming effect on others, aesthetic taste, diplomatic skills, heightened awareness of others' feelings, meditative powers, understanding partner, musical.

Improvement areas: timid, self-annihilating, negative, over-worrying, high expectation of partners, not knowing how to stand for own rights, time-wasting, martyrdom, not expressing irritation with others.

Beautiful Horizon

I just love her!

She has INTELLECTUAL CURIOSITY.

And she is very generous with it...

over exposure

For a swan is invariably the result of adherence to some AESTHETIC SYSTEM OF THOUGHT, a code transposed into a self-portrait; what we see is the imaginary portrait precisely projected. This is why certain women, while not truly beautiful but triumphs over plainness, can occasionally provide the swan-illusion: their INNER VISION of themselves is so fixed, decorated with such clever outer artifice, that we surrender to their claim, and even stand convinced of its genuineness - AND IT IS GENUINE.

Truman capote, "Observations", 1959, obviously NOT talking about me, 'cos I hadn't even been born then, but it doesn't matter!

Passion

A NYMPH'S PASSION

I love, and he loves me again,

Yet I dare not tell who;

For if the nymphs should know my swain,

I fear they'd love him too;

Yet if he be not known,

The pleasure is as good as none,

For that's a narrow joy is but our own.

I'll tell, that if they be not glad,

They may not envy me;

But then I grow jealous mad

And of them pitied be,

It were a plague 'bove scorn;

And yet it cannot be forborne

Unless my heart would, as my thought, be torn.

He is, if they can find him, fair

And fresh, and fragrant too,

As summer's sky or purgéd air,

And looks as lilies do

That are this morning blown:

Yet, yet I doubt he is not known,

And fear much more that more of him be shown.

But he has eyes so round and bright,

As make away my doubt,

Where Love may all his torches light,

Though Hate had put them out;

But then t' increase my fears

What nymph soe' er his voice but hears

Will be my rival, though she have but ears.

I'll tell no more, and yet I love,

And he loves me; yet no one

Unbecoming thought doth move

From either heart I know:

But so exempt from blame

As it would be to each a fame,

If love or fear would let me tell his name.

(Benjamin Jonson 1572-1637)

Pragmatism

How?

in my best interest

...i probably will never know

what would have been

in my best interest:

if to have held back or not !

...if i could, yes i would...

Share Life

The essence of life is to care.

The secret of life is to dare.

The adventure of life is to learn.

The challenge of life is to change.

The joy of life if to love.

"Mondays are the worst days"

Be careful what you believe in, because it does become your reality. True freedom is the liberty to choose our thoughts!

Ambiguity

...some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity...

Gilda Radner

intimacy

There is no doubting the fact that art and intimacy are interconnected - both are the result of passion...

Based in the idea that our senses are the best judge of what we need ( if we truly listen to them), then love and beauty can never be wrong - the goal is to appreciate what feels good and right and bring more of it into our lives.

Connecting with another person is one of the most sacred, exciting and spiritually challenging experiences we will go through in this lifetime!

Oshun

I feel an empty space within me,

a place where I would love to love.

I know that if my beeloved came here,

I would adore and cherish, honor and serve him.

Please, may I be given the opportunity to expand my heart into the life of another

in the holiest way, most beautiful way, the most intimate way, if it will serve a Higher purpose.

For I would learn the secrets of love and use what I learn to grace the life of another.

What a marvellous possibility - that such a treasure be placed in my hands!

I wish so much for this.

And I will do my best...

Yesterday

I was given this pillow or cushion!

It now adorns the comfort of my bed.

The only problem is that by now, he is no longer a prince, but a King!

And he came already...

Dreams do come true!

Antidote

LE SEUL VÉRITABLE ANTIDOTE À L'ANGOISSE QU'ENGENDRE CHEZ L'HOMME LA CONNAISSANCE DE SA MORT INÉLUCTABLE, CÉST LA JOIE ÉROTIQUE.

DAS EINZIGE MITTEL GEGEN DIE ANGST DES MENSCHEN VOR SEINEM UNABWENDBAREN TOD IST DIE LIEBERLUST.

THERE IS ONLY ONE REAL ANTIDOTE TO THE ANGUISH ENGENDERED IN HUMANITY BY ITS AWARENESS OF INEVITABLE DEATH: EROTIC JOY.

unfortunately...

...to blot as much, with half the cash?

If I do not condone the behavior, then...

I am tired!

Neue Sachlichkeit

by Félix Vallotton

1896 Woodccut

The best I can be now, is...

...if they like it, good.

...if they do not like it...good!

in praise of The vulnerable Man

Indeed a praise of The vulnerable Man,

This is a thank you for letting me in!

You, with your eyes, mix strength with abandon.

You, with your new kind of heroism!

You are the bravest Man I've ever met.

You, unreluctant at treacherous ledge.

Oh, you're the sexiest Man I've ever been with!

You, never hotter than with armor spent.

Why won't you lead the rest of your calvary home?

When you do what you do to provide,

How you land on the soft as you fortify?

You are the greatest Man I've ever met.

You, the stealth setter of new precedents...

And I bow, I bow down to you!

To the grace that it takes to melt on through.

And I vow, I vow to not take advantage.

And I vow, I vow to be true.

This is in praise of The vulnerable Man.

(an Alanis Morissette song, but the lyrics all shuffled up!)

A little bird told me...

...from now on, it is going to be "manna" time!

between the lines

time to tell me the truth, to burden your mouth for what you say
no pieces of paper in the way, 'cos i can't continue pretending to choose these opposite sides on which we fall
the loving you later, as if at all
no right minds could wrong be... this many times!

my memory is cruel, i'm queen of attention to details, defending intentions if he fails!
until now, he told me her name - it sounded familiar in a way - i could have sworn i'd heard him say it ten thousand times...if only i had been listening

leave unsaid unspoken
eyes wide shut unopened
you and me
always between the lines
between the lines

i thought, i thought i was ready to bleed, that we'd move from the shadows on the wall and stand in the center of it all
too late, two choices: to stay or to leave - mine was so easy to uncover
...he'd already left with the other...
so i've learned to listen through silence

leave unsaid unspoken
eyes wide shut unopened
you and me always be
you and me always be

i tell myself all the words he surely meant to say
i'll talk until the conversation doesn't stay on - "wait for me i'm almost ready", when he meant let go

leave unsaid unspoken
eyes wide shut unopened
You and me always be
You and me always be... ...between the lines

Exp...

Experimenting with different ways to work, play and love is not a sign of uncertainty, but one of self-confidence and trust.

No Fear

Taken with care and thought - not fear - a step backward can be more courageous than bilndly forging ahead!

what i want now

TO

Godzilla vs Bambi

...if you love somebody, set them free...

will some people never understand...?!

TEEDAH!

4th of July, 2009!

Sexiness is no longer defined just as whether women are desirable, but also as what women desire. The more liberated women become - economically, politically and personally - the more erotic we are! Freedom is a lot sexier than dependency.

Naomi Wolf