I'm just gonna hang on, 'cos events are conspiring to bring it together just when I least expect it and I know it! The rest is just "blah,blah,blah", any how...The main focus coming up concerns speculation about practices and readiness to get a grip on the odds, or to dare confrontation and failure without overanalyzing it while it's still up in the air.
My motto is "I can!". So I'm going ahead to dazzle them with my imaginative brilliance (NOT labelled so by myself, I might add), and do what I do best, but considering expanding my repertoire to keep my bag of tricks relevant or with added hybrid twist - updated and with components that work together! Then, I'm getting my show on the road.
I'll be surely tested in a way that's gonna be "so me" - a signature sign that will buck up my courage and can help me make peace with a secret truth I'm currently making such an effort to deny. Of course it's okay to be afraid. But I'm gonna do it any away - through perhaps the proverbial "fake it till you make it", but in the end, I'll have performed an amazing feat. It's gonna be an act of natural selection and self-acceptance with "new & improved" power of my own alter-ego. And also, apropos of purposeful self-resiliance, I might just feel compelled to guide others by example...
It's too bad that conventional or petty methods may have brought him down, but others are still compared with his name and standard, and despite any private agenda for public validation that launched his ascent, or drew the line, his legacy continues now through me! He's total inspiration! It's up to me to take on the role of the public endorsed enforcer as the face at the gate (which I dislike doing, but excel at); the protector and defender of my own realm and of the whole Empire. Therefore now I'm left with stepping right up and taking it straight to the front door - no more underground provisions or evasive maneuvers to get even or avoid commitment. This is a legit challenge. I like it. 'Cos I choose to...!
